Whispering

I don’t know why these days I m very sensitive and peevish .for any stupid topics I will anxious and confused. Just think and analysis all cheap and stupid stories and get angry and nervous. I don’t like stay in this mood. Most of the time I talk with my self and try to be clam and relax but, I can not control this sick mind! I’m facing a lot of pressure and each time I criticize my self about many unworthy things. I like come straight from the shoulders and be honest with my self. And funny point is I try to show off that I’m very happy! And show unreal smile. I wish I could yell any my stressful feeling and anxiety at the top of my lungs. I’m worried about a many things me, he future all people around us

This moment I’m worried about my family and specially mom, I think these days she needs some body that stay beside her and just do what ever she likes, some times I have guilty feeling that I’m not there, with her. I think some times she needs share her feeling talk about her condition. After my father, her moods and feeling change very clearly and every single day I recognize she is more fragile and touchy,

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Yaghob Mehrnahad

Today it was a journalist day and was anniversary of the 102nd year’s conditional revolution “مشروطه انقلاب “ in Iran. and exactly in this day I hear the government executed one journalist for being danger for the national security and as a member of the terrorist group .actually I do not know what is the real fact but s far as I know, he was a journalist in Zhaden (south east of Iran) he was a redactor of one local newspaper in there. He was 1.5 in person and I hear security office threat their family no talk or inform media about his situation. And at the end after 1.5 year they hanged him. When once I read some news about his dead penalty at that time just wondering maybe some human right groups or some special journalist campaign will try to change his penalty or postpone it but when today I see this news I shocked. Actually I feel some miserable feeling about mine. Every day I hear many dead penalties for most of the cases and I imagine what a simple and cheap they can decide about the human sprit or life. As a piece of cake they decide cut the continuing the life of the people and their rightness of living.
What happen for me that I do not care about other’s life? Especially when I think if his guilt be just about writing in newspaper and criticise the government or be opponent. I can not still tolerate or accept what happen to our country? 102 years ago we had constitution and some professional journalism and some civilised campaign that could brought many update legislation to our country in that year’s .And now in the anniversary of those days this government executed one journalist for threaten national security with writing in newspaper! Damn on…

New legistlation

These days most of the blogs are written about the new family legislations. I can not believe that in 2008 or after more than 7000 years civilization in Iran again most of the governors and legislatures are thinking same as back to many years before. When I read some of the new items that they want add to constitution, just laugh, because it’s same as joke, just I wanted tear my hair out, believe me!

Especially item 23 is horrible! Or those items that reduce the penalty of the man who married with no official registration or law marriage about the Iranian women with foreign people .whenever I think about these topics just I'm wondering once these governors should face the music!!

I f you want know more about the women campaign you can refer to this link.

choosing to have fun,today,tomorrow,every other day

today I received this video.very great speech,
If you live properly,the dreams come to your life.
I suggest ,listen to this video,maybe is useful

I'm waiting

Just 10 days are remaining. Please help me! Wow, I can not be patient

ME

I should work hard. I should be a very good student. Most of the time I blame myself, I’m lazy .I’m angry at this time. I wanted to be good, hard worker, patient and strong person.

my father

Some days are in life that never forgot.
Every year when those dates are coming and come to reach to exactly that dates your heart beat goes upper and upper .some days remember many beautiful or nice memory about the special events and others just remember very painful and nightmare events that repeat an repeat every day in your mind. For me there are many unforgettable events in my heart calendar, some of them are the memoir of so sweet and nice events and others very very painful. Today is the anniversary of one of the most painful events in my life. Maybe the worst .up to now I don’t believe I could see and passed that black day. Every day I think about that day in the days after that catastrophe in my life. Since I think maybe is a long nightmare and one day I realise all these days are just awful nightmares. Until now me every day I think life is same as before and all things are same as usual up to now I don’t believe that I have not seen my father for 5 years. It is unbelievable maybe is a long nightmare, maybe. Until now I could not accept I saw and bear that dark day back to 5 years ago. Every time before this disaster I thought if this tragedy happens for one of my family I for sure kill my self because I can not bear without them. But see, 5 years passed and I did not kill myself life is continue I’m here and no killing and … but just think maybe these days without him are not real and I can see him again. I really miss him, really ,maybe no body can not understand what I say, but I miss you .you don’t come in my dreams during these 5 years I haven’t remember one night you come in my dream and just talk to me ,ooh I remember ..Just once or twice at this time I can not exactly say how many times but maybe one or two times, yes just one or two. Please come, maybe in my dream we can talk together and seat and share some deep feeling. I really want you hug me and hug me strongly and can feel some body are that can support me very strong .I really need talk to you. share many heavy feeling with you , specially when I’m here .believe me that I really need you pray for me and support me .I know that I have not a good child for you but I m sure you are the best father in the world .